Swan Portraits

Tired and exhausted. This is my everyday feeling. Not that I don’t like things in my life.. I just want some things to end. I still love my life. We cannot really have everything to be perfect. There will always be some struggling that will come.. Hoping to end some struggles I have, soon!

I will upload some photos I took while I’m away from my computer

So sad today. But I have to move on and shouldn’t dwell on my unwanted feelings. I need to get ready for work to attend the whole day meeting and I only have 4.5 hours of sleep. For some it will be a lot already, but not for me who is used in sleeping at least 7-8 hours. Anyway, few more minutes then I will start. I need to make myself happy by shopping or browsing nice things on the web. Or check the email from my sister for the bar supplies she is eyeing to buy so I can be productive. Grrrr! I really need to focus and be busy to get this sadness away.

I’m touched by the people who spend time to send thank you cards right away after a big party. I always have thoughts of sending one to say my appreciation too but I often forget this thing. And when the moment I find time to do it.. too much time has passed already and I’m so lazy to do it anymore. I often send an email or a text message to say thank you. But I know writing on the card has different touch that is irreplaceable by the technology. This is something I want to work out in my life beginning this year.

I’m not in my happy mood lately and all I want to do now is grab one of this Branson Missouri vacation packages to get out from this emotion. I have upcoming exam two weeks from now..and I’m not even half way finished of my lessons. I’m good in cramming, but I know that it’s not really good.. it’s like gambling my chance of passing the exam. Haaaay! But what I can do.. I can’t really focus while I’m waiting in agony of the results of other exam I took.

Breath in.. breath out. Being anxious will not do any good.

If there’s anything you want to change or need to get fix, what would it be? I have few things I want to get solution but the first things I would like is to find an acne scar removal cream. I was affected by acne on my teens and even now that I’m on my 30’s. Now, I always have to use concealer to hide those spots including the few sun damage I have on my cheeks.

The second thing I want to get rid is the stretch marks on my belly and the third is to get rid of stubborn fats that will not be easy to remove even for hard workout. lol

I’m encouraging a friend to finish her education thru accredited online degrees. She was married and got kids at an early age, and that is the reason why she was not able to finish her degree. She feels contented on her life now but I told her that she needs a back up plan for the future. You don’t know what will happen in the future, and finishing her degree will help her to find job easily and support their family. Sometimes we get so complacent on where we are now and forget to think about the future. I hope she will listen to my advice.

Occasionally I feel down and I noticed that I feel it more often these days. I do not know why. I told it to my husband and my mom because I feel strange about it. Maybe because I am old? I feel like my hormones are really different lately. I was supposed to visit a hardware store to look some glass tiles but I was not able to do it because I have no energy to drive and I just want to lie in bed and read books. It’s really disaster when things like this happen, I cannot do things that I need to do.

I have too many things I want to do, like reading this colonix reviews, but my time is not enough to do everything in one day. I’m also busy in reviewing supplier pricing for my daughter’s party. I didn’t think that planning a party could this be hard.. but it was fun though, I just wished that I have more money I can spend to her party. These are just stuff I do on my desk, looking after to my 15 months old son is another separate thing. And that’s the reason why I have to many things I want to do but time is not enough to accomplish everything. I’m just glad that I have option of locking the bedroom door if my son won’t leave mommy for a while. hehehe

Too many acne cleansers I’ve tried, I finally found something that works! It’s not really a cleanser specifically made for acne but the natural ingredients helped a lot in taming my breakouts. I still once in a while get breakout, because of what I eat or nearing to my period, but other than that I’m free from blemishes And this is very cheap, you can get it for only $4.28 at Swanson Vitamins. Below is the description from the website, hope this can help you too.

* Natural, 100% Vegan face wash
* Features organic Tea Tree Oil
* Replace your old cleanser with this soothing, all natural wash that is good for you and the environment Desert Essence Thoroughly Clean Face Wash is a gentle cleansing solution that leaves your skin feeling silky and smooth. This unique face wash contains natural Organic Tea Tree Oil, a natural oil that cleanses without making skin feel tight or dry. Also included are soothing extracts of Goldenseal, Hawaiian White Ginger (Awapuhi), and essential oil of Chamomile. Mineral-rich Bladderwrack, harvested from the sea, nourishes the skin to leave it looking vibrantly healthy. Thoroughly Clean Face Wash ever so gently helps improve the texture, clarity and radiance of your skin.

My flight is 2.5 hours from now. This is my last field audit for this year. Hurray for me! However, I cannot take vacation until next year cause I have to finish all the field audit that I started. I haven’t turned in my report for four audits that I started. I was off for two weeks for the last three months and that explain my pending work. But despite being off,  I wasn’t able to accomplish all the things I listed that I need to do. Having two kids and just taking care of my eldest activity is already time consuming. Plus, attending the chiro treatment for my accident is eating all my time. I’m thinking if I should get a personal injury lawyer to take care of my interest like the car accident lawyer that is committed to fight for your best interest.

I still have two more weeks of treatment and then they have some repairs  they need to do with my car then I can start compiling all the expenses that they need to reimburse. The only thing not included is the personal injury for inconvenience and suffering.. I don’t know how much should I ask. I need to research about it.